Last week was a roller coaster ride...so many ups and so many downs. And they followed so fast that before I could enjoy the heights...I was plunging down in the pits. Good news and bad news were pouring in and I couldn't make out if I should be happy or sad.
It was the time for the annual puja in our society last week. After a long time I was meeting all the society members. And almost everyone asked me the same question, "What are you doing these days?" When I told them that I was about to finish my postgrad, their eyes lit up in happiness. Everyone wanted to give me a piece of advice about what to do next. But then, I realized an important thing. People expect great things from me. In fact some expect so much that no matter what I do, I am always an underachiever in their eyes. It gives me hard times justifying my actions to them. Though it is absolutely unnecessary to tell them my point of view, I end up doing it anyways. I guess, the reason is too obvious. Everyone wants to follow the orthodox path. But I hate to do things just because others are doing it. And that is where I make decisions that very few people understand. But I am lucky enough to have wonderful family members and considerate close friends who have supported me throughout.
I was telling AS that I'll never succumb to work, but it’s the expectations that are breaking me apart. My grandfather once told me that it is very easy to succeed, but it is extremely difficult to maintain what you have achieved. And now I am getting the true sense of it.
This is never going to stop…Greater Expectations…..and my struggle to keep up while walking my own way!
